Sometimes, I can’t help but feel like everything is falling apart. Something good happens and it doesn’t take long before it gets countered by something. You have something you enjoy, something comes along and ruins it. You feel happy about something, something comes along and ruins it. You finally feel productive, and .. you guessed it, something comes along and ruins it.
My life seems to be a non-stop ride of up and down, and the only ‘coasting’ mode I have, seems to be on that down portion. I never seem to maintain the good for any extended period of time.
I’ve been looking forward to a few things over the past few months, and each and everyone of them has had something come along and ruin it. I can’t win. I can’t seem to get any enjoyment without either having it ruined outright, or by some kind of guilt-causing thing taking place so that I can’t even fully enjoy it anymore.
Is it so much to ask for a little bit of good that lasts?
If this keeps up, every blog for 2021 is going to be depressing and bleak. Something’s gotta give.