So far this year, I’ve branched out and tried to do things I haven’t done in a while. For instance, just the other day, I ate an orange. Now this doesn’t sound all that noteworthy, but for me, it was pretty significant. I haven’t eaten an actual orange that I had to peel, in over 7 years. I forgot how damn hard it is.
I had orange peel under my nails. I had orange juice squirt onto my hoodie. My hands smelled like a cleaning supply closet for the next 4 hours (made worse by the addition of hand sanitizer). And the worst part is that I was still just as hungry, if not more so than before I started. Too much effort, not a lot of enjoyment.
The Lego set I put together earlier this month was the first time I’d put together a full Lego set ever, so I’m extra proud of it. It looks awesome and is now one of my proudly nerdy display pieces.
Last night, however, I started on the first actual puzzle I’ve done in well over 10 years. In fact, I don’t even know how long it has been. This one is 1500 pieces and it is absolutely kicking my butt. I don’t remember the pieces being so small or so similar or so dependent on my ability to concentrate. I’m a mess. It’s going to take me forever, but I feel like it’s going to be worth it in the end. I really am quite pleased with how it will look (it’s all Disney villains!) and I can’t wait to finish it, glue it, and stick it in a frame.
Blogging consistently is probably my biggest accomplishment this year, so far. Have they been great? No. Have they been in-depth, soul-searching, tales of life and liberty? No. Do they still count? Yes! It’s not about what I’m blogging. It’s about the fact that I am blogging. I am taking the time to approach some form of release, no matter how vague or short, and I’m doing it consistently. It’s not always at the same time of day, it’s not always something planned out, and sometimes it’s just an update to say, “Wow, today sucked, I’m not doing this with any degree of effort.” but it’s still something and I still took the time to do it.
I’m having a rough run of it, really just losing myself in various bouts of emotion and just not feeling up to snuff, but I am proud of the strides I’m making to try and improve and put myself out there, sharing my successes and failures with others. I hope to inspire others to take the chances, do what they need to do, and experience life. It’s going to be terrifying, but it doesn’t have to own you.
I firmly recommend putting yourself out there, too.