Today was a day of being proud of myself.
When I finished work for the day, I logged out of my laptop and immediately went into the kitchen to wash the dishes. Usually I’ll wash a few and then let the pain in my back prevent me from continuing, but I pushed myself to the end. I washed every single dish in the sink (including like 40 piece of silverware!) and I cleaned the sink as well. It may not seem like a lot to other people, but for me, it’s a huge deal.
With the depression, the pain, and the ADD, I’m basically like a squirrel when it comes to cleaning. Start here, remember something that needed done there, go there to do it, remember something that I started a minute ago over there. And before you know it, I’ve done nearly non-existent pieces of 100 tasks and look like I’ve gotten nothing accomplished. So when I say I’m sore and exhausted, it seems made up and like I’m being dramatic.
I know that I need to tackle it in pieces to be able to do it, but the key is to tackle pieces of the same task so that I’m actually getting things completely done instead of systematically making them worse by only partially doing them.
But here we are, making progress, if even for today! I haven’t been proud of myself in a long, long, long time and it honestly feels so good.
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