Lately, I find that when I remain inside my comfort zone, I still feel a layer of underlying discomfort. It doesn’t make any sense, but it’s happening nonetheless. I want to say that it’s triggered by a degree of guilt because I’m remaining within that designated comfort zone, but at the same time, I just really don’t know if ‘comfort’ has the same level of depth it once did.

I find myself wondering if I can do better, or worse, or more, or less. It’s never a sense of completion and contentment within when I do something.. it’s just always a feeling of, “Is this really the product that I’m putting out here?”

I have to find a way to quit being so negative, quit being so self-critical, quit being so over the top in my ability to pick things apart.. and start being more caring and kind to myself.

Honestly, the idea of that sound absolutely terrifying, which means that in order to accomplish a little bit of pride, I have to step outside of my comfort zone.

Hooray.

The process of buying a house has a lot of unknowns, the biggest one being timeline. We don’t know when we’ll be able to find a place or how long it will take once we do. Putting in offers, hoping for the best.. all very time-consuming (and stressful).

So in an effort to make peace with the fact that we’ll likely be here longer, up to another 6 months, I’ve gone on a rampage to try and start culling the shit we have in here and also doing small things to improve the quality of life. This includes swapping out our pantry shelving unit, thinning out our MASSIVE wardrobes and assorted wearables, clearing out furniture pieces that we no longer need/are damaged, etc.

It’s an undertaking and I’m going to do as much as I can during the weekends, because I can’t do much during the weeks. Hopefully, within the next couple months, I make some serious headway and we see a marked improvement in our quality of life. Or at the very least, find it easier to move because we have less stuff.

With another foot of snow pending, it’s another day of going to bed and hoping the power stays.

Hooray for winter. Stay safe and warm, friends.

We’re in the midst of one stupidly bizarre Winter and it’s really just getting started. We’re having ice storms and thundersnow and actual snow and just .. everything. And so that means that power is going out and internet is going out and my entire ability to stay awake depends on the internet after a long day, so I’m just going to call it and go sleep in the quiet dark (I hate it).

Stay safe, no matter where you are, because Winter is on a warpath in all regions this year!

After playing into World 5 in Super Mario 3D, I’m feeling like maybe it wasn’t what I was anticipating. That’s 100% on me, because I buy new Mario games without doing research because even the worst Mario games, I still play. But I assumed it was more open world exploration like Odyssey or Paper Mario (or even Sunshine!), but it’s just kind of a standard ‘go to each level and beat it to go to the next level’ and I’m just .. not sure that’s what I was looking for in a game right now. I need something more immersive and complete as a time sink, something to just get lost in.

So I’m back to playing WoW in-between the hour or so I can sit and play the worlds without getting a little burnt out. I don’t hate it, I just don’t feel like I love it.

Ah well.

I’m calling for a mulligan for today’s blog. I sort of feel like death, but I got a lot done today, so it’s a bit of a win/lose.

Tomorrow is back to work, but at least we have a long weekend next weekend.. in which to have more snow days.

Ah well. Back at it!